“just going to vent a little. “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” by wayne gretzky. right now that quote is translated into effort. effort…a vigorous or determined attempt. i usually never gave much effort into certain things in my life because i always saw things as they were a dime a dozen. i never put much effort into things because in my past i was always taken advantage of and got taken for granted. nonetheless i still tried to put some effort just never as much as i do now. now i give a lot of effort, i sacrifice certain things, i’ve changed myself just to show that effort but again….i just fooled myself thinking that my effort would be rewarded, that my effort was acknowledged. what fooled me was i thought things were different, i thought things changed but to me its just back to square one. i guess thats why i never really took things seriously and didn’t put effort was because of what happened in my past but i certainly do have an excuse to just not care anymore. one things for sure, the effort i’ve put in today compared to the past doesn’t even compare. its the small things i’ve focused on since those are the little wonders in life. i’ve tried my hardest and sometimes it will never be enough…”